These previous two years have been a challenge; however, I have learnt a considerable amount about myself and my ability. The subjects that I have captivated me, all have one thing in common, The mind. How much our sub-conscious and conscious mind are connected, how we perceive the world around us. The sub-conscious, being a place where you are truly yourself. Using our bodies to express our creativity through our alternate reality, our sub-conscious mind. perception is what makes us who we are and without it we wouldn’t have individual opinions and ideas. My interests in the sub-conscious mind, spirituality, history and mythology has helped me to absorb myself in the new ideas that have been thrown t me for the past two years.
The subject that I studied this year was Mannerisms. We delved into the history of Artists. Starting with the renaissance, we discovered intentions and perceptions of the great artists such as Bronzino and Michael-Angelo which would have been deemed outrageous by the churches who commissioned them. The use of colour and posture show us that there were hidden meanings in the highly famous paintings which was particularly dangerous to even think about during the time of the renaissance, where God was a man of all seeing and all knowing. We swiftly moved along the time line from Art-Nouveau too post modernism where questions for what was real and what was not started to get considered and answered by Artists from around the world. Although no artist was the same, they all concluded that we are our own person, while we may look different too other people, we know who we truly are and that is all that matters. Our reality is for no one else to decide.
I can now comprehend in depth how the conscious mind is constantly connecting with our subconscious and how we aren’t aware it is happening, sending information whether it be emotions, feelings, thoughts, memories or dreams. But is there any way to access it? The sub-conscious can be triggered through memory, memory that we have captured through our conscious mind. I believe the subconscious mind is inaccessible to others and cannot be witnessed first-hand. A mind is a place only ourselves should access and should be explored in creative ways to express one’s true thoughts and dreams. The mind and the innermost thoughts are unique to the creator and not for public consumption. It is a place that, as from children, we have begun to perceive the world around us. It becomes a place of routine. I have learnt from great writers such as Plato, that people are accustomed to what they know and would rather stick to just that then go and experience something completely new and queer to what they already recognise.
Sub-conscious and conscious thought linked well with the project that I am currently working on. It helped me to understand in more detail, the way my sub-conscious and conscious have a connection with each other, whether we realize it or not. I have also learnt how my creativity is affected by the way I think and the memories I have. By grasping the concept of the subconscious and conscious mind, I view the decisions I make in a different light. The sub-conscious is the core of what we are. It is something that cannot be accessed by anyone but yourself and when we least expect it too. My art is a vision of who I truly am, A piece of work that is made an alternate-reality for someone else to try and comprehend.
In my subject, I am currently looking at how we create using our sub-conscious mind, starting with an artist, named Sophie Woodrow, who forms animal and human creature-like figures from porcelain which she believes live in her sub-conscious mind. I found this surprisingly relatable and interesting. I wanted to portray my own inner spirits and creatures using my own art style. Fascinatingly, I am now creating delicate and dark shadowed forms which I believe to be my own inner spirits, using ink. This developed from a field project that I took part in. A trip to Morocco gave me the knowledge of Muslim demons such as the Jinn, which I felt present on the 8-day voyage to Marrakech. The Jinn, being a fiery, mischievous spirit which causes chaos unless you place rose petals amongst the sinks, toilets and water fountains; I knew I wanted to portray this demon using ink-blotting, as I can imagine this spirit as a Smokey mist. I believe this too link in well with my dissertation subject and I am optimistic that the work with the spirits guides me and hands me additional information for my final essay.
Although, I am not proving any points within the dissertation that I will be writing, I will be making the reader and myself aware that the sub-conscious is there and not only is it the real you but it also is the core of what you can do. I want to make the reader mindful of the different perspectives that other beings might have and how everyone expresses their reality through different mediums; For me, it is drawing. Through the knowledge, I have learnt throughout the past 2 years, I have become attentive to what I need to make my reality come to life in our 3-dimensional world. And without these tools or agents, I would could not express myself in such ways.